I’m not talking about the coins. I’m talking about change in my life. I have a specific order I do things in the morning, at school, and at night. I follow this procedure every fucking day. It’s hella redundant and boring, but I’m scared to change, because I feel like if I change, my life will be out of whack. And that’s where I’m having issues. I’m scared to live life off of the schedule. I always have to know the game plan before the game. It’s sad.
I guess it has it’s pros and cons. Pros would be that I have straight A’s because of it, and I can manage my time accordingly. However, I feel like the days are moving hella quickly and it gets overwhelming. All the work. The redundancy. And school life in general just piles up.
During the summer, I do whatever. But as soon as school comes back, I go into Mr. Planner mode. Idk. My life and mentality is weird. I have so much to do, in such little time. I just needa rest. I need to quit this repetitive mind-set and start going with the flow. Life is a bitch. But it’s a fun bitch. Change is hard, but is it completely necessary all the time? I don’t know.
Thanks to all you players and cheaters out there. Girls think all guys are the same, because of your selfish acts. All girls deserve to be treated right; make them feel special, and show them how much you care. Don’t just fuck with their heart and throw it away. It’s pigs like you that make a girl feel as if she can’t trust or love anymore. Not all guys are the same, once in a while, you will be lucky enough to come across a genuine man. Don’t be emotionally blinded from them though, because we’re here, trust me.
Today was pretty amazing. Not from doing a bunch of shit, but from all the stuff I was able to accomplish. I allowed myself to get about 14 hours of sleep LOL
I really needed it though. School has pretty much engulfed my life and left me sleep deprived. I really love my school, but this year is such a bitch! I’ve been only getting about 5 hours of sleep, that’s no bueno. The weekends are my motivation, knowing I can sleep in aha Anywho..
After I woke up, I ate cereal (x Then I went and did all my English homework. That took about 3 hours, because I had to read like 50 pages from The Book Thief. My appreciation for the book has increased, because it gave me an overwhelming moment of gratitude. Big words.. Anyways lol..
When I finished my English homework, I went downstairs and cleaned the crap out of it, and then I vacuumed the whole house. My aunty is coming in tomorrow from Hawaii, so I’m trynna make sure the house looks extra nice (x She’s bringing me a UH hoodie! Yeah buddy!
Now I’m just sitting here, listening to music and stuff. I don’t really blog about my day, so I figured I would. You might not care at all, but whatever LOL I hope you guys all had a great day, and all that good stuff!
Why the hell must you be so gross and noticeable. You always ruin my day, my outfit, and my damn confidence. You hurt me. You annoy me, and it seems like you’re never gonna leave. I was perfectly fine until puberty came along. Literally, I would have so much confidence if I didn’t have you little, egregious bumps in my life. Pimples, you gotta fucking leave, cuz I’m DONE with your careless acts of distraught and pain. I don’t want you, I don’t need you. Fuck. You.